A few weeks before I came across the song BE OK by Ingrid Michaelson, I was having a particularly low week. I really felt crummy. My aches and pains were growing worse and I hardly had enough energy to function. When anyone asked if I was feeling better I responded with,"sure." Which really meant no, but I thought it kind of me to spare them the same old "I just don't feel well" story.
It was frustrating that I couldn't just make myself feel better by my own strong determination. I knew that despite what others thought was wrong with me, putting a band aid (Prozac) on a symptom of larger problems was not the answer. I knew that "whatever" it was that was wrong would involve a long climb out of the sunken pit I had fallen into, but it was something I was capable of doing.
I sat on the bed one morning pleading with myself to put on my running shoes when all I could think was, I just want to feel OK. I had given up on feeling great. OK was good enough for me.
So when I listened to Ingrid's song for the first time the words sang right to my heart.
It was frustrating that I couldn't just make myself feel better by my own strong determination. I knew that despite what others thought was wrong with me, putting a band aid (Prozac) on a symptom of larger problems was not the answer. I knew that "whatever" it was that was wrong would involve a long climb out of the sunken pit I had fallen into, but it was something I was capable of doing.
I sat on the bed one morning pleading with myself to put on my running shoes when all I could think was, I just want to feel OK. I had given up on feeling great. OK was good enough for me.
So when I listened to Ingrid's song for the first time the words sang right to my heart.
1 comment:
Kari forwarded this song to my dad as he started his surgeries, chemo, and radiation. It is so poignant and hopefully it can be a good running song for you! Now I feel it could be my theme song for this pregnancy as well. Hope you are doing ok. Love ya!
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